It honestly took about 3 weeks but I'm finally starting to feel normal again. After we found out, I honestly felt a lot like Bella in New Moon. Days were passing without me even noticing. If I didn't have to go to work, I would've been at home in my bed, which is what I did as soon as I got home. After a couple weeks, I finally started to have the fog lifted from my head and my heart. We prayed hard and pondered and planned. I LOVE to plan so that helped a lot! After planning fertility treatments for so long, it was strange to be putting that away and concentrate on something else. Once I did that, there really was no other option than adoption. I honestly can say I am SO excited to adopt. I have been looking at websites, blogs, books, anything I can about adoption. I'm so impressed by adoptive parents and the strength they have to wait for their precious miracle and the some times difficult hoops to jump through to become a parent. I am INSANELY impressed by Birth moms. To not be able to have children has been the hardest thing I have gone through in my life thus far, and I can't even begin to imagine what those wonderful women go through and how much love they have for their children to place them with another family. It's going to be a long process from here but I honestly would not trade it for anything. Robby and I are 100 million times closer. We love each other more, we lean on each other more. When I'm sad, he does everything to cheer me up. When he's sad, I cheer him up. I know that this is what was supposed to happen. Even though some times I wish that one day I would magically become pregnant and 9 easy and fantastic months later, poof a baby is here, I know that's not the way it's going to happen for us. I always thought it was weird when people would say they were happy for their trials but I honestly feel that way. I would probably even go as far to say that this isn't really a trial, but a growing opportunity. I am closer to my husband and especially my Savior. Without Him, I would never have gotten through the past 4 weeks. I'm so grateful that He took my burden on Him and made mine lighter. He has gotten me through this and I know that soon, we will be blessed with our little angel.