Thursday, February 19, 2009

Today was our follow up appointment at the fertility doctor. We had taken a few tests and the doctor was going over the results. My blood work shows that there is something wrong with my ovaries (I've known that for several years) but thankfully I found out I am not diabetic (and I'm doubting now that I'm even pre diabetic like I've been told before). Not to go into all the gory details, we have a very very very small chance of getting pregnant on our own. And that's not including my problems. So right now our only option is In Vitro Fertilization. For those of you not in infertility land, that's where they take some of my eggs out, take some of hubby's swimmers and put them together in a little petri dish. And that's how babies are made. None of that Birds and Bees stuff here. The cost for this procedure is (not including the medicines and ultrasounds) is a little less than $10,000. So with everything included it will come out to anywhere between $10-15,000. That's per cycle. Did I mention insurance pays absolutely nothing? The chances of it working, about 30% (they could be higher since we are healthy and young but we also got diagnosed as infertile so you never know). The odds are not really in our favor. So now that we know the results we have a few options. Option 1, we live childless. Ok so that's not really an option here. Option 2, we go through in vitro fertilization, hope and pray that it works and fork out a ton of money that could be used for option 3. Option 3, we adopt. We are still debating between 2 and 3 and weighing the pros and cons. I've wanted to adopt for such a long time but now that it's one of only 2 options, it's a little hard to accept. I know there are so many children out there that need loving parents and homes to be in. And I know I would love them like they were my own and they would become my own, but I always thought it was going to be a choice we made, not something we were forced into. I'm going to start doing some more research into adoption and find out more. Luckily, my work started a new adoption program and they actually pay for up to $5000 of the adoption. So I'm leaning a little more towards that option. So, all prayers right now would be greatly appreciated. We're both still really emotional about this and need extra help to get through this hard time. But here is a picture of words that can be put on a onesie and this is exactly how I feel about adoption.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


I know it's late but better late than never!
Me and my Valentine. We look so skinny!
Hubby eating his favorite food, Sonic Ice Cream!
Robby on his birthday being silly before he blows out the candles.
Here's my sweet Valentine along with my other 2 favorite boys.

We're not big into Valentine's day so we stayed home most of the day and went out to eat in Maricopa (there's not much of a selection out here) but it was nice. We watched The Pretender (a great TV series if you're looking for another one). He bought me flowers a few days before (with the help of me picking them out) and he also bought me See's chocolate gift cards so we could go pick out chocolate. :) Yesterday, we went shopping and bought a brand new Carpet Cleaner Vacuum. I know it's not a very romantic Valentine's day but I loved it! And today, we celebrate the day he proposed. 4 years ago today, he sent me on a scavenger hunt to all the important milestones in our relationship (where we met, our first kiss, the first time we said "I love you", where he made the decision to ask me out, and then he sent me to a little hiking place in Phoenix and was at the top with a cd playing our song (Shania Twain, You've got a Way With Me) that we would dance to, and he got down on one knee (with tears in his eyes) and asked me to spend eternity with him. Of course I started crying and said yes. We kissed and then 4 months later to the day, we were married. I am more in love with him than I ever thought possible. He is perfect for me. I can't wait to spend the rest of my existence with him! :)