Sunday, May 13, 2012

Can't Sleep

After I fed Joey tonight, I just couldn't fall asleep.  I am sitting up reading old blog posts, browsing the internet, and just sitting here.  I'm remembering all those sad years of hoping and waiting for a baby and then another year passing by.  Mother's day was the hardest day of the year (closely followed by Christmas).  Watching all my friend's get pregnant, my sister and sister in laws, and never being able to go anywhere without seeing at least 10 strangers pregnant.

This year I am still sad.  I know that sounds weird because I am a mother now and have 2 amazing little miracles.  But, I am sad because I am missing Joey's birth mother.  I am wishing she were here to celebrate with us.  The day before Mother's day is Birth Mother's day.  I thought about Kayla a lot today (Grace's birth mom) and wondering if she was hurting too.  I know she loves Grace and knows she made the right decision, but I also know that she misses Grace.  I'm remembering my grandma who passed away last year and knowing my mom is probably hurting too today.  I know many of my friends are waiting for a miracle and Mother's day is hard for them too.  

I found this quote a couple days ago, and it is bringing me some peace.  I hope it does the same for you if you are hurting this Mother's day (or even on any given day).

"And to all who suffer—to all who feel discouraged, worried, or lonely—I say with love and deep concern for you, never give in.
Never surrender.
Never allow despair to overcome your spirit.
Embrace and rely upon the Hope of Israel, for the love of the Son of God pierces all darkness, softens all sorrow, and gladdens every heart.
Of this I testify and leave you my blessing in the name of Jesus Christ, amen."

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Family Pictures

When we finalized Joey's adoption, we got some family pictures by Kismet and Kisses Photography.  She did an amazing job and I wanted to share!  We are SOOOOO blessed!

Loving being a family of 4!  For now...

Not sure she really wants to be there...  

Leaning in for the smooch

Grace loves to swing by her arms!

We have a crazy life some days, but I wouldn't trade it for anything!

I love this man!!!!