Sunday, May 13, 2012

Can't Sleep

After I fed Joey tonight, I just couldn't fall asleep.  I am sitting up reading old blog posts, browsing the internet, and just sitting here.  I'm remembering all those sad years of hoping and waiting for a baby and then another year passing by.  Mother's day was the hardest day of the year (closely followed by Christmas).  Watching all my friend's get pregnant, my sister and sister in laws, and never being able to go anywhere without seeing at least 10 strangers pregnant.

This year I am still sad.  I know that sounds weird because I am a mother now and have 2 amazing little miracles.  But, I am sad because I am missing Joey's birth mother.  I am wishing she were here to celebrate with us.  The day before Mother's day is Birth Mother's day.  I thought about Kayla a lot today (Grace's birth mom) and wondering if she was hurting too.  I know she loves Grace and knows she made the right decision, but I also know that she misses Grace.  I'm remembering my grandma who passed away last year and knowing my mom is probably hurting too today.  I know many of my friends are waiting for a miracle and Mother's day is hard for them too.  


I found this quote a couple days ago, and it is bringing me some peace.  I hope it does the same for you if you are hurting this Mother's day (or even on any given day).



"And to all who suffer—to all who feel discouraged, worried, or lonely—I say with love and deep concern for you, never give in.
Never surrender.
Never allow despair to overcome your spirit.
Embrace and rely upon the Hope of Israel, for the love of the Son of God pierces all darkness, softens all sorrow, and gladdens every heart.
Of this I testify and leave you my blessing in the name of Jesus Christ, amen."

3 comments:

Amy said...

I just sent you a friend request on FB since you commented on the Bay Area FSA facebook page. Is it completely psycho of me to want to blogstalk you now too? Anyway, I had really similar feelings about our daughter's birthmom this year on her first birthday and posted a really similar sounding blog post and thought I would comment to say that I could relate to what you expressed here.

Alissa @ Creative With Kids said...

Hi Angee, thanks for your comment on my post about 100 ways to be Kind to your Child. What a beautiful family you have!! Thanks for sharing your story.
~Alissa

Alissa @ Creative With Kids said...

Hi Angee, thanks for your comment on my post about 100 ways to be Kind to your Child. What a beautiful family you have!! Thanks for sharing your story.
~Alissa